Just Before Now

by Alexander Leaving

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released 25 February 2013

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Track Name: You Wouldn't Want Me Around Tonight
You Wouldn’t Want Me Around Tonight

You wouldn’t want me around tonight
All that work and I’m not worth the fight
Find an open door and go
Where I can never follow you
Where I can’t love you ‘til I die

You don’t need a man like me around
You’re so free and I’d just drag you down
What those people say is true
When they say I’m not the man for you
I’d just hold you tight all through the night

Go your way and I’ll keep going mine
Ignore my love and things will work out fine
After all, I’d only love you so
I’d give you love and then I’d give you more
More than any other man has tried before

You wouldn’t want me around tonight…
Track Name: My Girl Lies To Me
My Girl Lies To Me

My girl, she lies to me
You keep your sympathy
She gives me everything
That’s all I need

She never speaks the truth
Her lies betrayed my youth
She drilled those eyes of blue
Into my dreams

Chorus: Empty train
In the subway
There’s a girl with wild eyes
One move
She’s above me
Pouring truth into my lies

My girl, she lies to me
You keep your sympathy
She gives me everything
That’s all I need

Her lies become my truths
It isn’t any use
Anyway, it’s no excuse
To leave her be

Chorus

Solo

You find truth anywhere
Any bus will get you there
When you find it, stop and stare
Then lie to me

Chorus

My girl, she lies to me
You keep your sympathy
She gives me everything
That’s all I need

My girl, she lies to me
Track Name: (You've Got) The Soul Of A Mannequin
(You’ve Got) The Soul of a Mannequin

You will never be normal
As much as you might wish to
And in your struggle to be shallow
You’ve grown predictable and hollow

I see you struggle with your failure
When you lose the acceptance you require
In your eyes I see the terror
That you’ll be discovered for what you are

Chorus: You need that invitation to the big dance
That features everything but substance
You’re so in love with imitation
So afraid of innovation
You’ve got the soul of a mannequin

You are the weakest kind of person
Always doing what the crowd is doing
I see how you celebrate the surface
And how you cling to what’s safest

You don’t understand the way that people see you
How they try so much less than you do
And somehow you feel like you’re above them
You think that you’ve hidden it from them

Chorus

Oh, but I’m just jealous
That’s just me being jealous
Please don’t hate me when I tell you
That’s just me being jealous

I gave you depths that you don’t have
I was such a fool to think that
It’s just your act was so convincing
When you needed something

Chorus
Track Name: You Call Me Home
You Call Me Home

Sitting still I hear this whisper in my ear
And I’d rather be anyplace else but here
A life destroyed by a curse that’s been passed down through the years
And it looked so perfect over there

(Bridge): It called to me, baby
It called to me, baby

I didn’t mean to let you down
When I set out on my own
It’s just something I had to find
What I had to learn
I had to find out on my own
I should have never left you behind

(Bridge): I’m coming home, baby
I’m coming home, baby

Chorus: You call me home
And give me nothing when I come to you
But your craggy shores
And your damn green fields
You call me home
With my pockets full of green
You call me home
But you ain’t real

(Bridge): But now I’m, home, baby
Now I’m home, baby

We’re children of the world
With no strings to tie us down
There’s no place that’s calling me
Rip the roots up, babe
And just throw them on the ground
Sit and breath and you are free

Chorus (x2)
Track Name: Something Like This
Something Like This

He poses her before a wall of ivy vines
He sends his love to her in childish rhymes

A clip in her hair, her hair parted to the side
Lips apart and her eyes open wide

Chorus: It’s not a promise
It’s just a kiss
It’s just a love note
Something like this

There are so many stories written in those eyes
A promise so fresh and pure that years deny

Just a single smile or glance, he’s mystified
Her shy, girl’s world of wonder he describes

Chorus

He poses her before a wall of ivy vines
He sends his love to her in childish rhymes

A clip in her hair, her hair parted to the side
Lips apart and her eyes open wide

Chorus
Track Name: Not For Lack Of Trying
Not For Lack of Trying

Not for lack of trying
Did our little thing fall apart
Not for lack of crying
Did I break your heart

Not for lack of crawling
Did I fail to stand too tall
Not for lack of giving
Did you end up with nothing at all

Chorus: And everyone that you talk to, babe
Has nothing good to say about me
And every place you go to, girl
Is one more place that you’d rather be

Not for lack of lying
Did you get the truth from me
Not for lack of caring
Did you miss my sympathy

Not for lack of knowing
Did we turn our eyes away
Not for lack of dying
Did I hear what you had to say

If you had looked for me
You might have found me
If you had looked for me
You might have seen how much I cared

Not for lack of feeling
Did you hide your eyes from me
Not for lack of failing
Not for lack of treachery

Chorus

Not for lack of trying…
Not for lack of trying…
Not for lack of trying…
Not for lack of trying did I break your heart
Track Name: Underneath My Hat
Underneath My Hat

Underneath my hat
I’ve got so many secrets
I’ve got so many lies
I’ve got so many whispers

Underneath my hat
I’ve got so many pictures
So many happy memories
And some of them are true

Chorus: It’s not the way I am
It’s just the way I’m built
You never wanted me
And there’s some truth at last

Underneath my hat’s where
Everything you left me
Is carefully arranged
In piles of deception

Underneath my hat is
Your lonely graveyard
A bucket full of bones with
No animation

Chorus

Underneath my hat it’s
Better than outside
Track Name: Hey Anna
Hey Anna

Hey Anna
Why’d you let them get you down?
Small people
In an even smaller town

Hey Anna
Why’d you let them break your heart?
Cold people
With even colder hearts

You are already free
You have everything you need

Hey Anna
Who tells you which notes to play?
Small voices
With even less to say

Hey Anna
Who tells you you can’t fly?
Stone people
Don’t you ever wonder why?

Chorus: You are already free
You have everything you need
Your heart already bleeds
You have everything you need

Hey Anna
Don’t let them change your mind
Track Name: Walking Tall (Or Not At All)
Walking Tall (or not at all)

Walking tall
Or not at all
Down on Tremont
Wait against the wall

Nobody brings you
Any grace
But you can find it
Anyplace (if you dig real deep)

Walking tall
Or not at all
Junkies and deadbeats
Girls on call

Over stoops and sidewalks
Streetlights glow
They look like searchlights
From down below (but no one’s searching for you)

Chorus: You wonder why
You ever came here
‘Cause every night
It’s the same here (and maybe you are, too)

Walking tall
Or not at all
You might beg here
But you won’t crawl

Stop at a phone booth
Check the slot for change
To stop the sickness
And open a vein (and maybe kill your brain)

Chorus: There’s no way
You can remain here
‘Cause everyone
Is fucking insane here (baby, ‘cept for you)

Solo

Walking tall
Or not at all
They just want your pride here
Can that be all?

A bit of work, boy
In the alleyway
If that’s all it costs you
Then that’s okay (at least that what you say)

Chorus: Unlike them
You’re not gonna die here
They won’t kill you
The tears you cry here (you’re gonna leave them here)

Walking tall
Or not at all
You may stumble
But you won’t fall

Walking tall
Or not at all…
Walking tall
Or not at all…
Track Name: Somewhere In The Night
Somewhere In The Night

Lying ‘neath the stars
At Dereenetra
With my baggage
And skeleton key
On my left cheek I feel
The bonfire’s heat
On my right
The spray off the sea

Chorus: You’ll find me somewhere
In the middle of the night
With the stones of the beach
Punching holes in my back
And my eyes up in orbit
With the satellites
Somewhere in the night

A sharp intake of breath
For each shooting star
Swimming in frostbite
‘Neath the red light of Mars
Wondering when it will end
For nothing stays as it was
I know I can’t hide here
For nothing is as it was
And my memories mean nothing
For nothing stays as it was
And my ghosts are all tired
And they want to go home

Chorus

At the first light of day
Well, I knew I was leaving
I said my goodbyes
No, I won’t be returning
For the spell had been broken
There’s no sense in pretending
And memories are measured
By what is forgotten
And you don’t stand at all
If you don’t stand for something
Once again I was lost
But knew where I was heading
So much had been learned
With no hope of forgetting
Then the sadness set in
Like a funeral or wedding

Chorus

Somewhere in the night